30 July 2014 @ 08:44 pm
 
Hey journal, it's been a while. For some reason, when I woke up this morning I felt alright, and as the day continued I just got more and more happy for some reason! I was able to talk to both of my parents about the car test situation while remaining relatively okay emotionally (plus I now have a study buddy for the test omg), I got really positive input about my tarot reading from Flight Rising folks, I got most of my college-y things out of the way so I don't need to worry about them, I made some cool-looking icons here (and might be doing more), I randomly found some stuff I've been looking for since I moved rooms and boxed everything up... overall it's been a really good, happy day! After the past few months, which seemed like an endless parade of sadness and apathy about everything (mostly because they were), it was really refreshing to have a day where I was genuinely happy again. Tonight that happiness has been tempered just because I'm back in my house and dealing with all the bullshit that entails, but I can still look back on all the great things that happened today and make myself smile again, if only a little bit.

I got invited to a pool party, guys. A pool party. I'm addicted to playing in the water, to be perfectly honest, so this really hyped me up. I also was able to get my copy of TWEWY Solo Mix back onto my phone, which is great because for some reason I can't find the physical copy I know I have... one of them is lent out to my friend, but I could have sworn I have two. Ah well, I have two now anyway.

On the college/school front... well. First, some background info. I'm going into my senior year of high school, but my school has an agreement with the local community college that certain high schoolers who do well enough can come to the college and take college courses... with credits... for free. My schedule with that has been up in the air for months now and it was really stressing me out, but just recently we got everything sorted! \o/ My mom is still being extremely naggy about this school thing along with everything else, but you know what. A friend of mine told me yesterday that I really can't let their petty squabbling get in the way of me doing what needs to be done, and it's true. I don't give a flying fuck about her trying to intrude on my life right now. 8)

I have a lot of stuff to do for actual colleges, as well! August is going to be my college tour gauntlet, with trips/things to do on the 1st, 4th, 6th, 11th, and 13th. I'm going to give the public transportation a test ride on the 20th. And then I'll use the last weeks of summer to pump myself up and get any remaining paperwork out of the way, so I can go back to school on the 7th-ish!! Super nervous about that, but in a mixture of good and bad ways. I'm trying to have more faith in myself and my abilities to do things correctly.

...Speaking of faith. I've been wanting to really explore new religions lately. I have always known that I am a spiritual person (hell, I probably wouldn't read all these tarot cards if I wasn't), and my stance for the past year or so has been "theist": I know there's something out there, I just don't know who or what that something is. Still, I know a lot of people are able to find religions that they can completely put their faith into... that sounds nice. I've been feeling lonely lately, and in the absence of a significant other, finding deities seems like the next best way to go. I am definitely looking into some kind of pagan religion, be it Buddhist or Hellenistic or Celtic or eclectic or whatever else. It's a thing that I am looking into.

And now, I'm off to do artsy-fartsy things like draw my OCs some icons, since I made them accounts today. Archer out.
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